Chronomentrophillia

: frozenin_time; October 18th, 18:58

Current Mood:: blah

Current Music:: The Smiths

I have noticed how people come in pairs,
As if they're afraid to be alone,
Or as if they've always been like that
And never considered being seperated.

Sometimes, in the middle of a busy street,
I'll watch for these people- they're not hard to spot.
They'll be walking side by side, maybe talking,
As if they are one and the same.

And I'll walk up to these people,
Even if I do not need to go that way,
No, not up to them, through them.
And watch their expressions as they're forced apart.
It's funny.

Tags: friends, words

Because it made me laugh, and reminded me of me...

: frozenin_time; September 22nd, 17:52

Current Mood:: productive

Facebook 'said' to me:

Join this group if you:
Have accumulated an admirable collection of shirts.
BIG HAIR IS A MUST.
Adore The Horrors.
Are not an emo, but wear black often.
You walk to music in your mind, even when you don't actually have the music going.
You always write with a ravenous pen.
You live in a black and white world, but your mind thinks in colour.
You scour op-shops and thrift stores for what seems like hours in the hope that you'll find a pair of shiny black pointy toed lace-up shoes that fit you perfectly.
You want/have a big sparkly belt buckle.
You would be described as "unhealthily pale" or "ivory".
You actually can't see, for your fringe is stabbing your eyes.

Tags: random

When I'm dead and gone, I'll be like everybody else.

: frozenin_time; September 17th, 18:34

Current Music:: tVEGC

It chilled me right to the bone. The thought that something so warped, so twisted, could have come from my pen, from my head, and was now lay there, scrawled in black ink, for all to see. The night Josh killed himself.

Tags: words

These Things Move In Threes.

: frozenin_time; August 29th, 17:33

Current Mood:: ecstatic

Current Music:: Placebo (Reading & Leeds)

(Just something I wrote last night, while feeling extremely philosophical. As with most of my poetic ramblings, these are to be taken with a pinch of salt, so to speak. Especially yours, Bex.)

Nicole.

Well, you can hide your eyes and you can dress in black but you'll still stand out with the sun glinting of your bleach-blonde hair and your jumble-sale jewelery, blinding the people you know and making them fall to their knees in your presence, begging for forgiveness.
And you'll grant them that, if they really mean it.
'Cos that's who you are.

Kate

Well, you may not have your piercings or your twenty tattoos, but you still stick out like a sore thumb, and you wouldn't have it any other way, 'cos, hey, normal's just a setting on a washing machine, and who wants to be called that?
You may not have your electric-blue-jet-black hair, but they still can't help but notice you.
They may plaster you with labels 'til you can barely breath, but that's only 'cos they're in awe- and even slightly scared of your bonkers personality, reducing their egos to snivelling wrecks.

Bex

Well, you may have your skinny jeans and your quirky accessories, but you can't help but fit in.
Even now you're different, you're the same.
Part of the pack, a need to belong.
And they love you for it.
But it's your 'geeky' core, your book-reading, sci-fi-watching alter-ego that really makes them stop. They see somethingunique, and they're scared.
So you hide it away, burying it under straightened hair and thick black eyeliner.
'Cos that's what you're loved for, really.
Not your split-personality, but when you allow both parts to mingle, to become one.
'Cos that's who you really are.

Opinions plz?
*also, as I said, these things are BASED on the above people.

Tags: friends, philosophising, rambling, words

Writer's Block: Good Days and Bad Days

: frozenin_time; August 20th, 20:32

Current Mood:: full

Current Music:: Larrikin Love- Edwould

What is your least favorite day of the week? And your favorite?

View 525 Answers

I don't like Saturdays because I work,
As a kid, I used to like Wednesdays because it was half way to the weekend each way. I still like Wednesdays.

Tags: writer's block

All Eyes on the Calendar

: frozenin_time; August 20th, 15:31

Look at the calendar.
I need to next post on the 26th :)

String Theory

: frozenin_time; August 20th, 15:19

Current Mood:: contemplative

it's better to do something simple and beautiful, rather than complex and scruffy. I've got to learn that I can't always do things complex and beautiful.
I don't want things to be what they seem to be, but I'm taking that idea too far at the moment. It's a journal that I want to look like a collage - not a cityscape. Because it doesn't look like a cityscape. I've got to take things back to their roots - start with the simpler things, because I don't like where my ideas are going. Not just with my moleskine, but with everything. My style, my mind, my life. No, that's not entirely true- some things have changed for the better. I think.
I should write one of these before I journal every day- or at least the days when I don't know what my mood is. Sort of like a spider diagram, but, rather than a carefully ordered diagram, it's a stream of thoughts- a stream of consciousness, pouring from my mind into this little box on the screen.
But I've said enough now. And I don't want my journal style to keep changing- that's why I have 'A Record Of Errors'. I will go back. And collage.

FIN

Also, I need to make more userpics.

Tags: rambling, words

just so I remember:

: frozenin_time; August 14th, 14:34

Nicole

hey

14:08Beckey

HALLO NICOLE!!!

14:09Nicole

heyy!!! You're coming!!

14:09Beckey

YES!! <3

im rather excited now

14:10Nicole

yep, so'm I

'tis just one night

14:11Beckey

good :) not that i dont want to stay longer but its easier for work and all

14:11Nicole

also, 'tis cheaper :)and thanx 4 the postcard :) not seen Kate to show it her yet.

14:12Beckey

okay :) does kate go to rangers ?

14:12Nicole

umm... ish. usually.

14:12Beckey

hows it been these past few weeks, whatve you done?

14:13Nicole

been on holiday and got 1/2 a tan - literally 1 half of my body tanned :S

14:14Beckey

LMAO unlucky ... at least you ot a tan! im pale :|

14:14Nicole

tbh, I'd prefer being pale :)

'least you had sun tho

14:14Beckey

:L :)

yeah we did have a bit (Y)

14:15Nicole

more than us. we had RAIN! (I <3 rain tho)

Anyhow, CARDIFF!!! Important info:

14:15Beckey

i shal never understand y

carry on..

14:16Nicole

lol. I'm bringing 'bout £60 not inc. train + hotel (been saving since xmas)

May bring more, but won't need to

14:16Beckey

i have £10 so far spends : |

14:17Nicole

inc. or not inc. hotel + train?

14:17Beckey

not inc the £30

14:18Nicole

ok, good. food won't cost much

14:18Beckey

i shall go to my bank i think.

14:19Nicole

We may (emphasis on may) be going the week after instead if the hotels are a bit full/expensive

14:19Beckey

14:19Nicole

should b goin on 18th/19th tho

14:19Beckey

when shall you know?

14:19Nicole

tonight. I'll text u

14:20Beckey

thankyou :D

14:20Nicole

brenda doesn't know if her + niamh r comin or not, but if not, then we should be able to just take kate

14:21Beckey

ok.:)

14:21Nicole

and..i don't think there's anything else I need to say bout cardiff...

14:22Beckey

so, can i bring a suitcase or justa bag?

14:22Nicole

schoolbag sized- prob be carrying it round a bit :(

bring as little as you can

14:22Beckey

okdokay, i shall try :)

14:23Nicole

anywhere aside from the obvious (the bay + exhibition) that you want to visit?

14:24Beckey

apparantly theres a good casstle ? (nerd alert) if its cheap and everyone wants to we could go there...

last resort?>

NICOLE! WHEN ARE WE GOING EXACTLY?

14:25Nicole

yeah, my mum wants to go to the castle, and I also <3 castles. Twas also a brief tw filming location

14:25Beckey

oooh :)

^^^^^^ please? when!?

14:25Nicole

u mean the time we r goin?

14:25Beckey

yes :)

tuesday morning or monday night?

14:26Nicole

early in the morning - 9.00 ish train, and back home no later than 8.00 the next day

14:26Beckey

tuesday morning? ;)

14:26Nicole

yeah. btw what do u mean by a good castle

14:27Beckey

well, my grandma said cardiff cstles a good csatle?> thats all

14:28Nicole

cos cardiff castle is all furnished ect - not like conway

14:28Beckey

ooh right:) i loved conwy castle ;) itll be good i think

14:28Nicole

( <3 your ever-changing way of spelling castle)

no other filming locations you want to go to?

http://www.cardiffcastle.com/content.asp - cardiff castle website

14:30Beckey

iddont really know any :L
and lmao i know i cant type today ;)

wow it looks really good!

14:31Nicole

I know :) oh well. I've sorta got a dw/tw tour planned round cf :)

14:32Beckey

(Y)

14:32Nicole

:D anyhow, gotta go now - gotta have my dinner :(

14:32Beckey

oaky :) half two? : L

byeeee

14:33Nicole

yeah, not eaten anythin today. bye

14:33Beckey

ah :) bye

This One?

: frozenin_time; August 8th, 17:25

Current Mood:: accomplished

I don't want to do this anymore. I want to go back to the real world- the world of neatness and order and every person and every thing in it's proper place. The world of mornings and burnt toast and warm orange juice trickling down my chin. But that world doesn't want me. Or maybe I just don't want it. Maybe I want to escape, to grin like a maniac and to do things I'd never normally dream of. I mean, I've planned it now; bought all that needs to be bought. I've got to have some escape from day-to-day life. Thing is, it feels like I'm living half my life in the real world, half in the world of madness and mixed-up feelings and swirling colours. Like a double life. Like Superman. And, as tempting as it may sound when I put it like this, I don't want to be Superman. And then I went and told everyone that I was going to do it. Well...only one person, and I didn't tell her the complete story, but the point is, I don't want anyone else to find out. It's my little secret. They all say that I have too many little secrets now. So I should. It's my right, as a teenager to have mood swings and private things and a messy room. Isn't it?

So, I'm going to go ahead and do it anyway. I don't know how far I'm going to get, how long I want to last. As long as I don't step fully into the world of madness, I'm fine. I hope.

Tags: rambling, words

Escape.

: frozenin_time; July 29th, 14:33

Current Mood:: unhappy

Current Music:: Count your Casualties - Patrick Wolf.

This journal's so depressing. I'm so depressing. As if anyone cares about what I post, anyway. I'm tempted to give up on the internet-it's no fun anymore. I like Last.fm though, but I've got to be doing something while I'm listening to it. But there's nothing that I want to do. Nothing in this world of technology appeals to me. I used to be so obsessed with the computer - I'd make icons, download fanmixes, talk to people on Facebook, find out Doctor Who news... the list goes on. But all I do now is listen to Last.fm and hang around

jr__nal. There is nothing for me here.
I will go for a walk.

Tags: rambling., words

Happy Birthday to Me (4th July)

: frozenin_time; July 4th, 0:00

All eyes on the calendar
Another year I claim of total indifference
To here, the days pile up
With decisions to be made
I'm sure all of them were wrong

Into this song I send myself
And with these drinks I plan to collapse
And forget this wasted year, these wasted years
Devoted friends, they disappear

And I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you
Some decisions you don't make
I guess it's just like breathing and not wanting to
Yeah, there are some things you can't fake

Well, I guess that it's typical
To cling to memories you'll never get back again
And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago
Or a friend that you used to know
And there below his frozen face
You wrote the name and that ancient date
And you can't believe that he's really gone
When all that's left is a song

And I'm sorry about the phone call and waking you
I know that it is late
But thank you for talking, because I needed to
Some things just can't wait...

Tags: bright eyes, life, words

A two- seater Granny

: frozenin_time; June 13th, 20:05

Current Mood:: unusual

We had a take-away for tea. It was... unusual, and filled my head with half-familiar spices. We ate, until only the mushrooms remained, floating like abandoned gondolas on a lake of ghee.

I would have preferred a cheese and tomato spider.

Generally, cheese and tomato pizzas are classed as veggie options. Therefore, the cheese and tomato spider (with strawberry- flavored Granny for after) misses the point. As would a vegetarian carnivore... Or a carnivorous herbivore. Save the Spiders!

Tags: rambling, words.

Those who live and die for numerology

: frozenin_time; June 12th, 20:03

Current Mood:: melancholy

I want to be poetical and lyrical, and weave words through the air like a dancer's ribbon or a nightingale's song. I want to craft the internet out of paper to fold it up and paste it in a notebook. And to open mobile phones and find watch parts, ticking gently with the turn of a key. But I gave up dancing. And I could never sing. So what is electrical stays that way, to be manipulated by unfamiliar hands, like a puppet on a string.

Tags: random, words

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: frozenin_time; June 5th, 7:23

Current Mood:: sad

Not happy. Couldn't watch Ashes to Ashes cos of the auction. Couldn't watch The Mentalist cos of Big Brother.fivePlayer hates me.

That is all.

Tags: ashes to ashes, life, the mentalist

Twice. (Three Is Not A Crowd)

: frozenin_time; May 27th, 18:42

Current Mood:: contemplative

Current Music:: None...

To Manchester Twice.
First With Kate, Then Bex, Ellen
Two Days In A Row.

Affleck's Beckoned Me
- In It's Own Intriguing Way.
Like I'm An Old Friend.

Twice The Trip, So Twice
The Entrance, The Bead Shop, The
Hair. Mad And Glowing.

Though Twice The Trip, Twice
The Money Spent- I Don't Mind
-Well, It Was Worth It.

Altogether, I
Spent...A Collossal Amount
But Still, I Am Rich.

With Every Trip Out,
I Become A 'Mad Tourist'
Not My Fault - It's Fun.

If They Didn't Want
Me To Embarrass Them Much,
They Should Not Have Come.

And If I Was Not
Allowed To Take Photographs,
They Should Have Maybe

Confiscated My
Phone, Or Hidden My Camera
-They Know What I'm Like.

They Know What I'm Like,
And Like Me For My Madness.
-Or Accept It Now.

'Least My Shoes Got An
Outing, And My Jacket Made
It's First Appearance.

And I Met A New
Person To Scare, And Learned That
Three Is Not A Crowd.

Tags: random, words

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: frozenin_time; May 22nd, 19:50

Current Mood:: thoughtful

I wish I could write crossover fic. Imagine Patrick Jane as a companion! Or even just someone that the Doctor bumps into. That'd probably be easier to write.

Tags: random, the mentalist